Faced problems? Over thinkings, insecurities, low self'esteems, negative thoughts, depression, peer pressure, 'never good enough' feelings. I mean, who doesnt face these kind of problems. I honestly, recently have finished crying because of some fcktard reason. "it's complicated".


Well darling, even though people seem like they don't care or notice, they actually do. They just don't show. People do notice you, you're the one who doesn't notice that. You're never alone. Do you understand? you're not the only one who faces these kind of problems. Heck, there are even people who faces worse scenarios than yours. Someone out there is struggling, they are having a battle with their own bodies, trying their best to be alive- people with cancer. people who are homeless, people who suffers starvation. Now THAT'S the real deal. our problem? our fear of society.


Do you know what you need to do? to NOT give a triple fck, that's what it is. You're NOT what the society says you are nor what that tiny voice inside your head says. At the end of the day, it's ALL YOU. You're wonderful and amazing. I want you to repeat this with me:

" I am a wonderful person. I am amazing. I am alive for a reason. I am loved. I am beautiful. I am worth it. I do not give any fcks to any single pricks in this world who tries to step on me. I am a warrior. Because of me, someone out there is still alive and because of me, a bunch of people are getting along with each other. I am a wonderful person. I am amazing. I am a warrior."

 One day, a person would come into your life and make you feel like you've never been hurt at all. If you're still all alone. that means you haven't found the right person yet. They will exist in your life and remind you how you mean the world to them.

Love yourself. From your pretty eyes to your goofy laughs, from your perfect hair to your "not satisfying" body shape, from your sweet smile to your ugly scars. Learn to accept your flaws; your crooked teeth, your "not ideal type" of eyebrows, your "not perfect" fingers and your chubby toes,  love how really big your shoe size is for a girl and most importantly, love how different you are from those "perfect girls" this society keeps on stressing about. Once you love your flaws, no one can ever use them against you, yes. not even that tiny voice in your head. Honestly, it wont be easy. But as you grow, you'll learn how to love yourself. You'll learn how to accept your flaws step by step and once you look back? you'll laugh at this, you'll wonder why in the world were you soooo insecured back then when youre older, when you were clearly sexy and hot as fuq.

Distract your mind from being miserable, your mind's tryna fck w you. Change your lifestyle; if you hate being fat then excercise, obtain a healthy lifestyle. dont starve yourself. If you hate yourself, then change yourself. change the parts of you that you dont like. if youre a douche, then stop being one. BE ACTIVE! there's sooo much in life than just being a downer. Go outside, take some fresh air. Smile at people, make their whole day. Look yourself in the mirror and say "Hey sexy, u so fiiiiine. High five to your parents for doing a great job!" and give a lil cheeky wink. GET MOTIVATED. INSPIRE PEOPLE. TAKE RISKS. Do something you dont usually do like complimenting people face to face, saying i love you to your dear ones, breaking awkward silence, smile at strangers. ANYTHING, well except sex and violence.(but if youre married then, sure, why not? NO VIOLENCE)

Dont waste your time glooming around, you'll face more bullpoops as you grow older. There's the stuck up boss, fighting of your children, stress, no free time, busy 24/7, the restriction of eating certain food bc you'd get diseases like diabetes and shit. Think positive thoughts, laugh cause youre a one lucky lil fcker, you DESERVE to be happy.

B   E     H   A   P   P   Y   ! 

w, spread and share your happiness with people alright? aights.

Run along now, spread and share your happiness with people alright? aights.

Them bad boys

Sigh. So, it's 12.15am (13.11.2014) which means later, I'll be having my O level English Oral Exam. After that,

FREEDOM

heh. Aight, my main purpose here is that, I wonder why i'm bothered to even make a blog. Okay, I made a blog cause I followed my sister when I was a kid. You know how it goes haha. but i'm talking about now. who in the world would be interested enough to read about my daily life? i mean come on!...... unless i have a secret admirer hehehehe. lol, no. Like seriously, how am I even sure that someone is even gonna read this post. like, why bother zav? there aint anything interesting bout my life haha. What should I do? Should I like.. think of a purpose? like... post recipes and stuffs? idk. should I like.. post about things that I enjoy or love? should I make reviews and shiz? I dont know. we'll see.
 

Should I have like.. a theme? every monday, it's the suggested songs of the week. tuesday is things that i love. wednesday is yada yada yada and so on? we'll see, we'll see. I mean like, I have 3 whole months for this. YAAAAAS. wait no. still sucks. Next week, we(wan and I) have to go to school DAILY for our 'history extraclasses'. A WHOLE WEEK. THATS LIKE... DEDUCTING A YEAR FROM YOUR GAJILLION YEARS OF FREEDOM FROM SCHOOL AND STUDYING URGH!

k zav, keep yo cool son. Wow, its 12.31am now. errybody's asleep, I hope my brain would function well for tmrw's oral exam. Aaaaanywhos, I was honestly going to discuss about teenage problems, I wanted to share things like insecurities, overthinkings, low self-esteems, peer pressure and yeah, basically stuffs like that. I even titled this post as "them bad boys".

But yeah, lets see if I'll talk about em tmrw. or discuss about that themed day thingy. heck, I'd maybe even change my theme haha. Till then, ciao.

Mahili :*

aaaaaah. Ili mahili Nahili :3

Today is the day where you enter the BIG 17 ;)

    Wonder why I didnt greet you by texting? This is why. I wanna let you know and let the WHOLE WORLD (well basically just anyone who reads this post or those who views my blog lol) that you mean the WORLD to e. Our friendship? I hope it stays till the end. I hope that we'd still be bffs until we're old. we'll grow up together and our children could be childhood friends!

    Ily, you are honestly one of the most important people in my life! you're my motivation booster, my number 1 supporter, my bestie, my unbiological sister and most importantly you're my other half! We relate to eachother most of the times, we're fantabulous and omg i just idk!

Ily and I :*

   You never get tired of my drama. youre the one who i trust the most. You've been there for me for like most of then times and you dont even know that youve really really really helped me. Since you came to my life, many has changed. You played a HUGE role in my life that I dont even know how to say thank you. You change most of me into good. You are a big impact to my life. Eventhough we had our pros and cons... you still supported me since day 1! You accept me for who I am. You still love me eventhough you know that im full of flaws. trust me, I'm FULL of flaws. yet, youre still here. Youve seen my brightest and darkest, youve been there for me.. when I was in my brightest AND when I was in my darkest times. way to go! You know most of my secrets. Sure, im an open person, I could tell my probs to anyone. But youre the one who knows most of my problems. Idk, I just trust you THAT much cause I know that you wont ever ever ever ever everrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr hurt me on purpose.You're actually my inspiration. Because of you, I became stronger than ever. Because of you, I'm good at advising people. Because of you, I changed into good. Because of you, I could look pass through my flaws.

   ILY! this girl has been with me for 3 years and ofcourse still counting. She fangirls with me, she understands my language, she's seen me fall and thats the first time Ive ever fell during these 3 years of school time in Menglait cause im not that clumsy kind of person. lol. so congrats to you :p I JUST REALISED THAT WE ALWAYS SIT OPPOSITE FROM EACHOTHER! In year 9, My seat was at the back, and her seat was in front of mine. In year 10, my seat was still at the back while her seat was also still infront of me. Year 11, my seat is infront of her while her seat is behind mine! omg :")

   Alright, her personality. She's optimistic, Tho she has her downs, she's still always positive in everything! SHE'S CUTE LIKE OMG YOU FEEL LIKE SLAPPING HER PASAL HER ATTITUDE JUA CUTE HAHAHAAH!!! I always look at her as a butterfly. She's the most caring person I've ever met in my life. She puts her friendship first than anything or anyone else. She can sing that opera tune which I love omg :") She's just... she's the best. She's totally worth the wait ( for you guys out there ;)). SHE LOVES HER MOM SO MUCH LIKE I ENVY HER RELATIONSHIP WITH HER MOM. OH AND SHE'S GOT THE BEST MOM EVER. LIKE SHE'S SOOO SUPPORTING. SHE'S ONE OF THOSE COOL CATS KIND OF PARENTS! She's also understanding and doesnt gives up that easily. She's dedicated, anak solehah. idk.

she loooves hawaii! Ily(R) me(M) and sya(L) syu nada :(

  She's my everything. If I were to have to choose between lasagna and ily? I'd definitely pick ily. and pfffft trust me, I never pick ppl over lasagna cause lasagna is love. omg. so yeah, you can see that she's really special to me. Atu, baru saja 3 tahun tu friendship tani ah. apatah lagi tahun yang selanjutnya? (eseh speaking malay is I) idk man. idk. I could write a WHOOOOOOOLE NOVEL for this gurl. but it's getting late and I bet I'll be late for sch tmrw cause its currently 12.36am. (I forced myself to stay up late cause I gotta prepare Ily's gift 9the pic below if I insert it tho) and btw its 18/19th aug rn, k?) so yeah, now that ive told you guys about Ily, dont try to steal her away from me, cause I'll know. I have her other half (ily tau ni what I mean)(if you dont ly, I meant your other half of your jantung)

I always see this as Ily :*

    THANK YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH for these wonderful bitter, sweet 3 years of friendship ly, May Allah DROWN you with all his blessings, may you live a longer and healthier life and yeah, never stop being yourself cause no one in the world can ever be better at being you than yourself. Saya sayang pada mu, Aishiteru, Saranghaeyo, and all the languages that stands for I love you. I LOVE YOU LUYYYYYY VGFRYADSFLHBBBECHDGHNHLDFSSLYUIO <33333333333333 nbsp="" p="">

  Ily's present? You can check it out here! :) oh and uhh, p/s, her birthday is on 20th August. xx

wat even idek idek

                              OMG HAHAHAHAHAQHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA hey there.

     So like, I just opened my blog (obviously, I wouldnt be posting this if I didnt) and I looked through all of my blogposts... SO MUCH FACEPALM YOU DONT EVEN OMG I CANT EVEN T.T There's those fetus me, the k-pop me, the carrot fan me omggggg idek idek sigh. I wouldnt blame you if you judged me back then. Trust me, I feel like slapping my old me with a brick!

     Alright. Firstly, I havent posted here since... idk but the thing is I've been SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO busy that Idk.. meh, I just didnt wanna write here 'Tis all, lol. Plus, what should I even write about? My daily life? sure. I did that, but look where it got me? Also, who even cares about my daily life anyway? *ketawa menangis emoji*... unless someone has a crush on me......? LOL NAH.

     Idk, I'll just think it over AFTER I sit for my O levels I guess? where I'd have like... 3 months of FREEEEEEEEEE-EFFING-DOM OMG HAHAHAHAH. Ehem, anyways. Since I'm writing on you now, and it's Lyssa's birthday.... why not right? A birthday greet wont hurt?

    Okaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay. Alyssa :) Lyssie Wyssie Matussie Hatussie (idek)! hey qurl haaaaaaaaaaaaay. We met from Ugama schhol, and honestly the way we became friends was pretty... different. Not the old typical "Hi! I'm______ wanna be friends? :)" we started off from sara. you were her friend and I was her friend too. Then, you just started saying weird things which involves me having a convo with you. Youw were the first weirdest person I've ever met! now? qurl, puberty hit you and look at you? all good looking and shiz :p hahhaha. well, we were totally dare devils. We sat arah lantai while nunggu parents etc. You, girl, are one talented little lad. First, there was the singing. Then, there was the musical instruments. Now? ART! which improved a heeeellll damn lot. I mean, I wish you could draw a potrait of me made out of nutella or something hahahah. You're very passionate I can say :) I went to your house for Raya, last 2 years. Know what that means? You're the first friend man! the first friend who my parents allowed me to go to. Plus, you're the first friend who I've hung out with. As in bejalan2. (readers. bear in mind that my parents are one of those parents who are overly protective) hahaha. The special thing about our friendship is that.. even  if we dont contact or see eachother anymore or we lack in seeing/communicating with eachother., we still treat eachother the same as we did before no awkwardness or whatsoever. Eventhough we've change in some ways. We still love eachother. I hope that this friendship of ours lasts! Love you honey <3 p="" xx="">
  Ehem, birthday greet eh zav? more like description, hahhaha. well, yeah. whateves let this post be a random one hahaha. Till then! Assalammualaikum.