Not good at all

This not good. To be honest, I have been very different this year. I got non organised, my room's not clean and I don't even bother to clean it up. I got fatter since February and I'm not even worried. I'm not even going to do anything about it like not eating or excercising.. just NOTHING! And these few days, I didn't scan slash open my laptop. I'M NOT EVEN WORRIED THAT MY WEB PROTECTION IS UNPROTECTED! What is wrong with me? Pelajaran ketinggalan. I'm sorry for all these rants but, I had no where to go. I saw you blogger so, I just had to do something atleast? These past few days, we weren't given any homeworks in 3 damn days in a row! Its like a miracle! But I did NOTHING but going out with my mom... what is this? And I realised that next year isn't that far away! But my attitude is still like... this? Wht should I do now? What must I do so I can change myself? I wanna be organised again, I wanna be religious, fit, hygienic, study-holic.. basically, I JUST WANT MY LIFE BACK! How to be productive that is? I'll google sooner or later. Yes, I'm typing this on my phone at 1.13 am on my bed, lying, about to go to sleep. Oh and today is also the first day of Rejab in our Islamic calendar. Happy Rejab to all muslims out there :) thanks a lot! Bye! Xx