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PHEWH!

what a day, yet day's been #blessed Alhamdulillah. So my day started off with a complete THROWBACK!

Some of us with Teacher Nurul

Some of us (11 Cemerlang,2014) came to visit Teacher Nurul today, which eventually led us to visit our other ex teachers. It's just so amazing how grown we are and how the school has changed drastically- It hasn't even been 3 years yet!

She still keeps my letters T.T

Looking back, I couldn't imagine my classmates and I growing up and coming back to the school after years' passed by, cause I was just so caught up in the present back then. It's only been about two years and a month but I feel like we've really grown up and matured. Amazing! The next step now is where we're going to go: pursuing Higher Education, work, experiencing the useful, necessary skills available in technical schools and colleges- It's a range of next steps that we're all going to take.

She kept our pic right in front of her desk AWW!

with teacher Bibah

 

 

 

 

 

 

Wan, Me, Nisa, Cikgu Suriyati, Hasif and Syuhada

Ili, Duan, Me, Nisa, Syirah, Sinah, Teacher Rina, Raudhah

Me, Mrs. Alder, Boon, hasif, Nisa and Wan

A sample of that quality camera my phone posseses

In the evening, My family and I went to Bridex where the Local Institution Fair was held. Here I met some of my ex classmates, ex schoolmates and ex juniors in MD. It's interesting getting to know what courses their going to take and which instituitions they are going to pursue. sigh. Here's the part where I still can't believe that I'm going to be turning 19 this year, and I can't believe I'm finally done with school. That's right, No more uniforms! some may be quite excited as they can express their daily, varying moods throught their clothings. Well, not for me honey. I just can't imagine the struggle of not knowing what to wear for every different days!! (If there's gonna be a UBD shirt of jersey or something, I'll for sure be using THAT on most days whenever I had "nothing to wear" lol).

We ended the day by spending  our casual yet cherishable and precious family movie time! I was really excited until I finally found out what movie we were watching (we watched Rings, the horror movie). God. Do not ever treat me to watch a horror movie with you because most of the time, I would just be closing my eyes. depending on the scary scenes tho. lmao. But it was fun lah haha

Another day of 2017, blessed! Alhamdulillah

3) The little things

 09-02-2017

Okay, to be perfectly honest with you, I have changed- especially since I've entered 6th form centre. A levels changed me. wow. I've just been so down and utterly disappointed in myself.

But then again, it's just a part of growing up. I'm not saying A levels is the sole reason that I've became pessimistic, gloomy and just down right  not myself because honestly I can recall most of my friends from high school being like what I'm going through. Yes, it's finally my turn to endure this new phase. Even though people keep on motivating me and saying it isn't the end of the world, I would still end up finding myself being.... disappointed. sucks.

but wow, today? It was another typical day where I did my laundry and other chores. While waiting for my laundry to finish "spinning", I went to my room and started to tidy some stuffs up. That's when I saw the MD appreciation gifts my friends gave me last year. I then started to wonder where Ufairah's letter for me was. Instead of her letter, I found other bunch of letters my old friends gave me. Syasya's letter was the best. I mean, I knew she wrote letters for me, but I somehow couldn't remember receiving this particular letter from her from 2015. It really moved me. It really reminded me of who tf I really am. I don't just give up easily when life knocks me down. Hell, I get back up and show life who tf it's tryna mess with! anyways, letters after letters, I finally found Ufairah's envelope.The content was more or less the same as what syasya wrote, but the mere difference is that Syasya's my high school friend when I did my O levels and Ufairah's my History classmate when I did my As.

I'm so grateful as to how Allah Ta'ala has been there for me he's been showing me signs to not ever give up, especially these letters I've found. It really boosted me up!

 The point is, the pattern's still there. I am no quitter and I won't ever be. I will always be me, thus I won't let my last examination result disappoint me. I can do better and I will definitely prove it in my next journey. I won't disappoint my parents,future lecturers and especially myself. no way, no more.

UBD here I come :)

2) A levels

Damn.

It's no kidding that struggles are real when it comes to A levels. People say A levels is the most difficult examination one can ever take. It's to the point where "even doing Masters is easier" as quoted from my father. It isn't for everyone. But to heck with that. I really believe that I could do it, I really can. It's just my own silly mistake for not being careful and for being irresponsible at the time. damn.

That's the reason why I'm disappointed in myself. That's why I kind of despised it whenever people gave typical responses and so called 'motivation' to me. Other people who got more or less similar results like mine have said they've done their best. Well guess what? I haven't. And that's the most crucial reason as to why I always find me being disappointed in myself at the end of every day since my results came out. I could've had a different future by now if only I'd just did what I was supposed to do.

I wanted to prove people who underestimated my choice of courses wrong, I wanted to prove the A level myth wrong, I wanted to show them A level isn't hard if you only just take it seriously. I could've done it but I didn't. That's why I'm disappointed in me, I didn't get to achieve my goal for A levels.

We may plan certain stuffs, but not everything goes according to our plans. This is because Allah is the best of planners and when things don't go your way, Allah has planned something far way better than what you've intended to achieve. I really hold on tho these folowing phrases: "Everything happens for a reason", "Disebalik semua ini, pasti ada hikmahnya.".

So, NO! I won't give up just yet because my journey does NOT end here. It's merely beginning, and I believe it's going to be a beautiful beginning if I only just stay FOCUSED.

You've had your success before, your friend have not. Now, it's their time to shine and my time to taste disappointment to know appreciation and not taking things for granted.

However, fellow A level candidates, know that you are not alone. You never are. I finally realised this when my cousin took me out for dinner. We aren't that close to be honest, which made me wonder why she randomly texted me if I wanted to go out and have dinner with her. My cousin took me for dinner and she was just there, comforting me. She shared with me what she's gone through during A levels and she let me know how she understands EXACTLY how I felt. In fact, she convinced me how she's had it tougher cause of some private reasons. Look at how amazing that is? We aren't even THAT close and yet, she was able to be there for me. I heard from my mom that she did this to my older sister as well! Bless her. What an amazing thing to do. She really elevated me. So whatever happens, never give up. Got good grades, get greater grades. Got bad grades, get better grades. YOU CAN DO IT!!


Bless up xx

1) Catching up session with Zav

 05-02-2017

So it's been DECADES since I've last posted here (by decades i meant 2 years ago lol) and I'm here to tell you that a lot of things occured to me, the good and bad, obviously. Let's see, we've got:

-admission to MD
-17th birthday
-karate international scheme
-psychology face off
-18th birthday
-New Years
-Diyana's Discovery Year in Pekalongan, Indonesia

Oh, and let's not forget about

A LEVELS

Ugh, 2016 was the shittiest year I've been in. It's not just because of A levels alone, but in general. However, to this very day, 2017 has been very #BLESSED for me. Alhamdulillah, I guess me blowing surah Ayat Al-Kursi to my 2017 calendar has been a success so far. Lol jk haha (but am I tho) lmao.

I've been conflicting with myself lately in regards to whether or not I should continue writing blogposts here, debating if I should continue keeping a lowkey profile in all of my social medias (except snapchat). But i rarely snap anyways (due to my excellent camera quality phone that I am proud to posses) so that still counts as lowkey. My friends there are the actual people i know anyways, so yeah. Anywayyy, after several sessions of discussion with thyself, (didnt even take a day tbh) the final result was that I could keep on posting here as no one even visits my page HAHA. So I'm pretty much safe (I hope).

Speaking of results, wow. Hello A levels, whaddup? Y u gotta play me li' diz son? I'll make another post especially for this.

Okay, currently I'm waiting for the HECAS application to be open so i can apply for UBD. In Sha Allah, I'll be taking Historical studies as my major there and hopefully uni life would be better. I'm kinda excited and can't wait to enrol there tbh.

Also, am I currently working at a part time job you may ask? I would say, no. Not that I don't want to, it's just that i don't really need to. The day will probably come in the future, I've got another 6 months to go 'til uni begins anyways. Chill. Besides, I haven't got my driving license yet, I wouldn't want to burden my parents to send and pick me up to and from work 24/7. But hey hey hey, I've got a temporary license kaliaaah and so far it's been only 3 jam out of15 hours of my driving license, so im almost there!

Okay wow, I think that's pretty much it?  I know i've kept on doing this if you observe my previous posts. Like, I'd be like "Oh, its been so and so years since ive posted here, I'll be more active blahblahblah, catch you soon!" *rolls eyes like how the earth rotates 24/7* but you, I've got nothing to do and it's gonna be 6 months, so I dont think I'd be less active compared to then. So, see ya!

(I get the feeling that future me will cringe to this)

Oh well HAHA