Okay, to be perfectly honest with you, I have changed- especially since I've entered 6th form centre. A levels changed me. wow. I've just been so down and utterly disappointed in myself.
But then again, it's just a part of growing up. I'm not saying A levels is the sole reason that I've became pessimistic, gloomy and just down right not myself because honestly I can recall most of my friends from high school being like what I'm going through. Yes, it's finally my turn to endure this new phase. Even though people keep on motivating me and saying it isn't the end of the world, I would still end up finding myself being.... disappointed. sucks.
but wow, today? It was another typical day where I did my laundry and other chores. While waiting for my laundry to finish "spinning", I went to my room and started to tidy some stuffs up. That's when I saw the MD appreciation gifts my friends gave me last year. I then started to wonder where Ufairah's letter for me was. Instead of her letter, I found other bunch of letters my old friends gave me. Syasya's letter was the best. I mean, I knew she wrote letters for me, but I somehow couldn't remember receiving this particular letter from her from 2015. It really moved me. It really reminded me of who tf I really am. I don't just give up easily when life knocks me down. Hell, I get back up and show life who tf it's tryna mess with! anyways, letters after letters, I finally found Ufairah's envelope.The content was more or less the same as what syasya wrote, but the mere difference is that Syasya's my high school friend when I did my O levels and Ufairah's my History classmate when I did my As.
I'm so grateful as to how Allah Ta'ala has been there for me he's been showing me signs to not ever give up, especially these letters I've found. It really boosted me up!
The point is, the pattern's still there. I am no quitter and I won't ever be. I will always be me, thus I won't let my last examination result disappoint me. I can do better and I will definitely prove it in my next journey. I won't disappoint my parents,future lecturers and especially myself. no way, no more.
UBD here I come :)
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